Bomber full forward Matthew Lloyd is under no illusions how difficult he will find it watching his team play against Hawthorn this weekend. In fact he believes it will be the toughest two hours of his career. Lloyd, who misses this weekend's match through suspension, has written about his heartache in his latest Insider column. The duel Coleman Medallist also looks at the club's preparation for this weekend's Preliminary Final and a Hawthorn side he rates very highly.Go to The Insider for the full story.